Before I leave the wonderfully safe and small Madison, WI for the Summer I want to reflect on what has happen and what I have learned and continue to learn abut myself and others.
First, "U can't trust, U can't trust them, just don't do it" well that pretty much describes the horrific years I have experience while in Mad-town ( great name for such a small spot in the universe). Let's begin with the most interesting topic to women today and that is men
Men: I have dated and been more than just friends with several characters while in Mad-town from college students to petty criminals and through all that I have only been arrested once Whew! I was arrested if you may know for a crime I did not commit and almost arrested for damaging my then lunatic bf apartment and car (he owed me some money and I was gonna take it out of him one way or the other). Then once I became more like these characters and began to use their same tactics on them I escalated to a pimp ( point one for me). I took their money in their own selfish hopes that one day I would return to them with open arms and actually let everyone else go for that one lucky man.
Conclusion from Men: I will never aagin stoop so low in my life were I am willing to accept any type of a man just to say I am taken and wanted. I have grown to love myself more and to careless of who is on my arm, but rather who I allow to be there. I let men know in the door that I am open to new things however, I will not accept bs, liars, stupidity, baby momma drama, and low-lives with nothing going for them.
I am in a very large way a loner basically someone who sticks to be alone so that I will not have to face heartbreak from others. Everyone know if I call you a friend the you should consider yourself lucky to be in my life by not adding anymore additional drama to it. I am a friend to the end and will stick by you forever, but once I am hurt or basically left for dead it's over for us staying as friends.
I once called this female a friend and confided in her alot of my personal thoughts and activities, however down the line she ended up betraying me to my own family by belittling my character then a month or so later she told me I was being petty for holding a grudge against her what a dumb bit*h (oops, but the name fits perfect) I have learned that misery loves company and that she was jealous of my relationship with my mother, my relationship with men, and how everyone loved me...she basically was a leech and I had to get rid of her eventually, I need to live and she damaged everything I was living for.
Conclusion: Friends are people you can trust to not judge you, but they shoud not know all your business. Also true friends will always make sure that you are grounded in reality and not faking to make it, they will bail you out from anything then scold you later. They will know your weaknesses but they will not exploit them for their own selfish gain. A true friend is someone you can consider family even if you don't talk or spend time with them everyday and like my grandma always told and now I am a believer in, " If you can count on one hand how many true friends you have then consider yourself lucky and blessed."
After all men and friends can coexist in one persons life like in mine its simple as don't make the same mistake twice and sometimes it only takes you to re-wind down memory lane to see the inevitable before it happens .
